Saturday, November 8, 2008

30 Days of Thanksgiving #8

I sang in a recital this afternoon. The song I sang is from a straight-to-video movie called "Joseph: King of Dreams." It was a follow-up movie to "Prince of Egypt." I love the message of the song and I'm so grateful I was finally able to find the music. I ended up needing to transpose it down a bit - I'm no longer a soprano! - but I'm very happy with how it turned out. Here are the words:

Better Than I
from Joseph: King of Dreams

I thought I did what’s right.
I thought I had the answers.
I thought I chose the surest road -
but that road brought me here.
So I put up a fight
and told you how to help me.
Now just when I have given up,
the truth is coming clear.

You know better than I,
You know the way.
I’ve let go the need to know why
for you know better than I.

If this has been a test,
I cannot see the reason.
But maybe knowing I don’t know
is part of getting through.
I try to do what’s best.
And faith has made it easy
to see the best thing I can do
is put my trust in you.

For you know better than I,
You know the way.
I’ve let go the need to know why
for you know better than I.

I saw one cloud and thought it was the sky.
I saw a bird and thought that I could follow.
But it was you who taught that bird to fly.
If I let you reach me, will you teach me?

For you know better than I,
You know the way.
I’ve let go the need to know why.
I’ll take what answers you supply.
You know better than I.


I've had a lot of ponderings lately on my need to trust the Lord. I like to be in control - a personality trait that was only intensified by my health problems. I am really trying to let go and let the Lord guide my life. I have really tried to live by Elder Cook's counsel to "Live by Faith and Not by Fear." If I try to control everything, I am letting my life be guided by fear - fear of the unknown, fear of failure. I don't want to live that way. But if I choose to allow the Lord to guide my life, then I am letting go of that fear and living in Faith. It is a hard lesson and one I'm still struggling with. The song's thoughts on letting go and trusting the Lord because He knows "better than I" really express what I am trying to learn.

I am grateful for good music that enriches my life. I am grateful for the talents I've been blessed with and for the opportunity to share my feelings through music. I am grateful for such a wonderful voice teacher. She seriously has the "Midas touch" and she is a good friend. I am grateful for my Gorgeous Grandma who has been to every single recital I've ever been in, including today. She has my recital for my students already written on her calendar.

And yes, this is one of the songs on my CD :)

2 comments:

photography by suzanne said...

And yes, I want to hear it.

Matthew Hansen said...

This is cool stuff Julie. Good writing.